These past couple of days, I have not been okay.....AND THAT'S OKAY.
Some days I'm good, some days I'm not.....that's just how depression works. My anxiety is a different thing. This whole week my anxiety has just been a roller coaster 🎢. I'm just extremely anxious. I feel it all in my shoulders. My body is so fucken tense. I can just feel every muscle In my body squeeze from the anxiety. It sounds fucken weird but that's just how it feels. It's like if someone is shaking my nerves and I cant keep a steady muscle. Millions of thoughts racing through my mind. As time passes by, my energy is just being drained by the minute. Shitty shitty shitty. It's just nonstop. It never goes away, it makes my days longer. Feels like time has stopped. Having depression doesnt make it any better. Just makes it feel like you have no control over this. Makes you feel defeated; just beat myself up even more. Blaming myself for letting myself feel this way.
But somewhere there is a light, the light that gives me hope that I will be better. Just got to keep pushing. I have to tell myself, this is not who I am. This is only temporary. Got to remind myself that I can be better.... #depression #anxiety #mystory #cannamomlife
#hope #mentallyexhausted - 2 days ago