this is so fucking hard. ive been stuck feeling so low for so long. thoughts of suicide and falling back into pits of self harm. as dumb as it fucking sounds the thing that kept me going the most was when people would ask me who would take care of Danzig if i werent around. i thought id have him for another 15-20 years. i knew how poor his previous living conditions were and i wanted to do everything in my power to give him the life he deserved. in the past year hes taught me so much responsibility, patience, respect, and unconditional love. i bonded with this lizard in the most beautifully unexpected way, i joked wayy too often that i swore he was my soulmate because our personalities are so alike. i feel so honored to have gotten to bond with this sweet, beautiful animal and im so grateful for every moment i spent working with him and earning his trust. he gave me a reason to get up every morning, i took care of him at even the lowest points of my depression when i couldnt even take care of myself. i wouldnt of gotten out of bed most days if it wasnt for switching his lights and providing fresh food and water every morning. he gave me a purpose, i cared for him more than you could ever imagine. it feels so evil and cruel to have him taken from me so soon... when i needed him the most and when he was supposed to have a long life a head of him. i cant help but blame myself. i feel like i lost such a huge part of me tonight. he meant everything to me. im so broken, everything hurts.
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