Love, Lust & Other Sins/18/
I am on the familiar partially dark staircase, my feet cautiously climbing. Each step I take forward, I become more and more guilty of. I shouldn't have come here, but I know if I don't willingly meet her, she will find ways to unwillingly make me meet her. I have to know what she wants from me. .
When I'm finally standing in front of the clinic, instead of ringing the bell, I just push the door in. I know she has left it open for me. .
I step inside, vividly aware of every detail of the reception area. I glance at the clock that says 6 pm. Then, I lock the door behind me and proceed towards the room she's in. Upon entering, I don't really spot her at first, but the room's energy tells me that she's here. Everything is cold.
. "Glad you could make it, sweetie." Her voice alarms me, coming from the chair usually I'm seated in; its back is facing me, which is why I can't see her face, but only her long legs crossed in front of her. . "What do you want? I thought we were done." I say, walking towards her with nervous steps. I want to seem confident, unalarmed, but my shaky breaths betray me. There she is — Vaanya.
. "YOU were done. I am not." She says, finally looking up at me. I am staring in her eyes after months, and it takes me by surprise. I forgot how deep of a pit they contained. On nights I couldn't sleep, I'd imagine falling into it. It feels like giving up would be so much easier, but something inside me says I should keep fighting. . "Listen...I don't know what we were, but in relationships, when one person is done, the entire relationship is done." I firmly state.
She stands up. She's wearing a formal blue skirt, and a tight silver shirt, her long hair falling behind her. As she walks in my direction, I am compelled to take a step back.
. "Kabir, honey...you know you can't be done even if you want to." She smiles, standing too close to me now. I can feel her breath falling on to my neck. I imagine how good it would feel to choke her and kill her. She'll be just gone. . "What's that supposed to mean?" I ask her.
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