“oh life, please don’t pass me by.” -
so before i go to bed, i just wanted to say that i decided on going back to school tomorrow, and i am very nervous. but i’m going to be okay! because sometimes you really just have to push yourself to do the things that seem scary. when i was in the hospital, i was feeling so terrible about life that i literally told people i was going to drop out because there was no way i could ever finish college when i’m just so sad. and i kept on telling myself i wasn’t going to go back, because i just wouldn’t be able to handle it anyways. but today i feel like realization smacked me upside the head, and i decided that i really don’t want to let mental illness become my entire identity and let it be the reason i drop out of college and be jobless and soil relationships. sure, college and jobs and relationships are scary. but it’s stuff i have to do to be the person i’ve always wanted to be when i grow up. and it takes a lot of effort, and sometimes it gets really hard when you have mental health issues. but you just shouldn’t let that be the reason you don’t do the things you’ve always wanted to do. i’m just really tired of letting mental illness sabotage my life and i’m sick of letting my identity revolve around misery. so that’s my spiel. goodnight, i have child development at 8 a.m lmao.
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