Your heart will never lead you astray. Let me say it again for the people in the back: your heart will never lead you astray. All the fear that we have, the worries about what will happen if we do find the courage to let our hearts lead us - all of that is bullshit.
It shows up in so many ways. Steven Pressfield has a name for the ways that we try to convince ourselves that we cannot follow our hearts: Resistance. I have my own: The Adversary. Paulo Coelho calls it The Enemy. Whatever the name, it's the current coming downstream as you, the salmon, try to make your way upriver.
Let me tell you something: you are stronger than this spiritual piece of shit. You are a font of infinite strength and power. You are not lazy, you are not stupid, you are not 'not good enough.' You are a hero in the true sense of the word. You have the power to make the world right again.
So how do we get started? Spend some time writing, thinking, meditating: find what it is you want to do with your life. Unearth your dream, something that you abandoned out of fear long ago. It is there, hiding somewhere.
Make sure it's a crazy dream. Make sure it's something that in no rational way could it ever manifest. Find the total lunatic's version of the truth and work on making it a reality.
It doesn't take much to break inertia. All you need is fifteen minutes a day to devote to whatever: writing, painting, coding, developing a business plan.
Full disclosure: you will fuck up from time to time. You will spend a week not doing your work and it will start to eat away at you. The familiar narrative of inadequacy will start to play in your mind. It will always be there. And it is okay to stumble. It's always okay to stumble.
Just get your ass up and moving again. Don't hate yourself in the interim. Failure, which doesn't actually exist, will mold you.
Like the Apollo 13 crowd trying to get the aim their last bit of juice to get the Earth in the window, you are course correcting, always. - 9 minutes ago