I am starting to feel it. Not the #joy . Somehow it has left me this season after a very good and happy year.
Perhaps starting off December an entire week sick, accompanied by the gloomy weather, had put my #body and #mind in an entirely different place.
Now, I feel #peace and #laziness . I feel a sense of #security again, after a horrible period of uncertainty, insecurity, tears and fears. These feelings had gripped me all of a sudden in early December, but I was told that it happens - even if life is all fine without any major upsets. I felt so helpless by that swarm of overwhelming negativity and feelings, I hate it when it happens :/ Now, it's time for #family #friends #laughter #peace and #christmas . I no longer feel the festivity of yester years. #joy has left me this season, and I have never found #love the way people thought of it - but love exists in many forms, and thankfully, this has been with me still, in its various shapes and forms - be it human or not.
I have this feeling now that life will fall into place again, and I do not wish to lift a finger to control or do anything right now. There are some money that I need to pay, and like my wise sister told me: anything you can solve with money is not an issue. Though it brings me a lot of stress and heartache, some things just have to be done. I am thankful, grateful and feeling blessed for everything else that life has bring.
The most important thing and focus now is #health . You can never live a good life or feel happy or normal without good health. Looking ahead, it's time to think about diet and fitness seriously, and maybe start having the discipline to bring about some real change.
What are you feeling this #christmas and this #yearend ? - 2 minutes ago