#bpdhurts

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🌾my being real with you doesn't make me hateful. 🌾I'm just trying to be honest about who I am, what I need, and what's best for my growth.🌱
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Ignore me I'm emotional πŸ˜­πŸ˜”
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I'm sorry my growth is messy. I'm sorry speaking MY truths as they come to me hurts so many people.  At this point I guess, #idontfuckwithNOBODY #hermitwitch #cottagewitch #kitchenwitch #doingmybest #bpdhurts #bpdissues

🌾my being real with you doesn't make me hateful. 🌾I'm just trying to be honest about who I am, what I need, and what's best for my growth.🌱 . . . . . Ignore me I'm emotional πŸ˜­πŸ˜” . . . πŸ₯€πŸŒŒπŸŒ™ I'm sorry my growth is messy. I'm sorry speaking MY truths as they come to me hurts so many people. At this point I guess, #idontfuckwithNOBODY #hermitwitch #cottagewitch #kitchenwitch #doingmybest #bpdhurts #bpdissues - 14 days ago

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Day 3. I do hope everyone had a good day.

I struggled today. I wanted so bad to convince myself to go out and be around everyone, but #anxiety took over and killed all my hope. Lolz. 
But no matter what, I love my family. I will see them real soon. 
#bipolar #bipolardisoder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #borderline #mentalhealth #bpd #conveniently #family #bpdhurts #depressionhurts #blog #vlog #dailyblog #everydayimstruggling #pcos #bpddaily

Day 3. I do hope everyone had a good day. I struggled today. I wanted so bad to convince myself to go out and be around everyone, but #anxiety took over and killed all my hope. Lolz. But no matter what, I love my family. I will see them real soon. #bipolar #bipolardisoder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #borderline #mentalhealth #bpd #conveniently #family #bpdhurts #depressionhurts #blog #vlog #dailyblog #everydayimstruggling #pcos #bpddaily - 3 months ago

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I had a few good hours yesterday... we started a Harry Potter marathon- which I can only assume the kids will demand to start #3 tonight... but anyways. I had a few good hours. && that’s saying something. I felt your prayers & im nothing less than incredibly grateful for them. Keep them coming- I don’t see this storm passing anytime soon πŸ˜” #thanksforlistening #thisisborderline #BPD #borderlinepersonality #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #depression #anxiety #ppd #postpartumdepression #mamasgotbpd #anditsabitch #sorryforthelanguagebutitstrue #itjustis #andithurts #bpdhurts #prayformeplease #pleasegod

I had a few good hours yesterday... we started a Harry Potter marathon- which I can only assume the kids will demand to start #3 tonight... but anyways. I had a few good hours. && that’s saying something. I felt your prayers & im nothing less than incredibly grateful for them. Keep them coming- I don’t see this storm passing anytime soon πŸ˜” #thanksforlistening #thisisborderline #BPD #borderlinepersonality #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #depression #anxiety #ppd #postpartumdepression #mamasgotbpd #anditsabitch #sorryforthelanguagebutitstrue #itjustis #andithurts #bpdhurts #prayformeplease #pleasegod - 4 months ago

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#grumpysparkles #cantcontrolit #mymouthhasamindofitsown #myemitionsrunwild #loudemotions #intenseemotions #itsloudinmyhead #anxiety #depression #moodswings #intrusivethoughts #intenseanger #alwaysmad #alwayssad #bpdhurts #bpd #borderline #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpdawareness #bpdproblems #mentalhealth #mentalillness #learnaboutmentalillness #imtrying #nobodyunderstands #iwanttofeelbetter

#grumpysparkles #cantcontrolit #mymouthhasamindofitsown #myemitionsrunwild #loudemotions #intenseemotions #itsloudinmyhead #anxiety #depression #moodswings #intrusivethoughts #intenseanger #alwaysmad #alwayssad #bpdhurts #bpd #borderline #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpdawareness #bpdproblems #mentalhealth #mentalillness #learnaboutmentalillness #imtrying #nobodyunderstands #iwanttofeelbetter - 6 months ago

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#thisisborderline #bpdthings #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdhurts

#thisisborderline #bpdthings #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdhurts - 10 months ago

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The above pic is of my Aunt Patty. She passed away on Saturday, January 12th, 2019.
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Just us kids are left now. She was the last of my dad's brothers/sisters to die. Due to some unfortunate circumstances, I hadn't been close to her in years. However, she was family and a part of my life, thus the loss still hurts.
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Struggling w/death has always been an issue for me & BPD has been of no help in this arena. The black & white thinking coupled w/extreme emotions tend to see us bottle everything up & close ourselves off or deal w/it in an outpouring of crying, depression, anger & unhealthy coping, accompanied by that nauseating feeling of no end in sight.
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When my dad unexpectedly died, alcoholism became a way of life & health issues began to quickly arise, several of which I'm still dealing w/to this day. I drank & drank & drank for years. Certain songs would send me into a tailspin of crying bouts, guilt & regret. It was a cycle which tried it's damndest to tear me apart &, unfortunately, I stood by & watched it do just that.
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Grieving is a process which doesn't happen overnight. You need to allow yourself the time to sort through all of those feelings/emotions, let them out & heal. Working through this process w/a therapist, counselor, coach, etc. is something I never did, until now. It's been over 15 years of pain (w/my dad) I kept trying to stuff back down, yet it somehow always found a way to resurface & send me plummeting head first down that rabbit hole.
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If you don't deal w/grief head on, it's never going to get better; it will continue to reappear & haunt you. Death can be extremely difficult to handle, especially on one's own. Please don't let pride stand in the way of your mental & physical well being. You're worth whatever it may take to heal & I'm positive those loved ones who passed on would want to see you do just that➑#choosehealingoverhurting
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#bpd #bpdstruggles #bpdhurts #bpdrecovery #ptsd #cptsd #ocd #depression #depressed #anxiety #beatanxiety #suicide #suicideprevention #loss #suicideawareness #grief #mentalhealth #mentalillness #grievingprocess #sadness #guilt #regret #healing #youareworthyofhealing #youaresttongerthanyouthink

. The above pic is of my Aunt Patty. She passed away on Saturday, January 12th, 2019. . Just us kids are left now. She was the last of my dad's brothers/sisters to die. Due to some unfortunate circumstances, I hadn't been close to her in years. However, she was family and a part of my life, thus the loss still hurts. . Struggling w/death has always been an issue for me & BPD has been of no help in this arena. The black & white thinking coupled w/extreme emotions tend to see us bottle everything up & close ourselves off or deal w/it in an outpouring of crying, depression, anger & unhealthy coping, accompanied by that nauseating feeling of no end in sight. . When my dad unexpectedly died, alcoholism became a way of life & health issues began to quickly arise, several of which I'm still dealing w/to this day. I drank & drank & drank for years. Certain songs would send me into a tailspin of crying bouts, guilt & regret. It was a cycle which tried it's damndest to tear me apart &, unfortunately, I stood by & watched it do just that. . Grieving is a process which doesn't happen overnight. You need to allow yourself the time to sort through all of those feelings/emotions, let them out & heal. Working through this process w/a therapist, counselor, coach, etc. is something I never did, until now. It's been over 15 years of pain (w/my dad) I kept trying to stuff back down, yet it somehow always found a way to resurface & send me plummeting head first down that rabbit hole. . If you don't deal w/grief head on, it's never going to get better; it will continue to reappear & haunt you. Death can be extremely difficult to handle, especially on one's own. Please don't let pride stand in the way of your mental & physical well being. You're worth whatever it may take to heal & I'm positive those loved ones who passed on would want to see you do just that➑#choosehealingoverhurting . . #bpd #bpdstruggles #bpdhurts #bpdrecovery #ptsd #cptsd #ocd #depression #depressed #anxiety #beatanxiety #suicide #suicideprevention #loss #suicideawareness #grief #mentalhealth #mentalillness #grievingprocess #sadness #guilt #regret #healing #youareworthyofhealing #youaresttongerthanyouthink - 1 year ago

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Listen not only to one's voice, but the lack thereof; for there is more pain and truth hidden within such sounds of silence than any spoken word could ever convey...
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#bpd #bpdstruggles #bpdproblems #bpdhurts #bpdrecovery #ptsd #ptsdstruggles #ptsdrecovery #cptsd #cptsd #ocd #bipolar #depression #anxiety #beatanxiety #suicide #suicideawareness #suicideprevention #mentalhealth #mentalillness #trauma #hurt #pain #listen #silence #thesoundofsilence

. Listen not only to one's voice, but the lack thereof; for there is more pain and truth hidden within such sounds of silence than any spoken word could ever convey... . #tuesdaythoughts . . #bpd #bpdstruggles #bpdproblems #bpdhurts #bpdrecovery #ptsd #ptsdstruggles #ptsdrecovery #cptsd #cptsd #ocd #bipolar #depression #anxiety #beatanxiety #suicide #suicideawareness #suicideprevention #mentalhealth #mentalillness #trauma #hurt #pain #listen #silence #thesoundofsilence - 1 year ago

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Each day is getting harder and harder to live with this awful disorder, I don't know how much more I can take. πŸ˜’πŸ•³πŸ˜’ #bpd #bpdhurts #eupd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #bpdproblems #bpdissues #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang😎 #bpdrecovery #bpdstress #bpdiswinning #bpdsucksass #livingwithbpd #livingwithbpdishard #failedrelationship #becauseofbpd #ihurtsomuch #iwanttofeelhappy

Each day is getting harder and harder to live with this awful disorder, I don't know how much more I can take. πŸ˜’πŸ•³πŸ˜’ #bpd #bpdhurts #eupd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #bpdproblems #bpdissues #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang 😎 #bpdrecovery #bpdstress #bpdiswinning #bpdsucksass #livingwithbpd #livingwithbpdishard #failedrelationship #becauseofbpd #ihurtsomuch #iwanttofeelhappy - 2 years ago

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Having a hard time with my mental health at the moment, I feel so alone, I feel like nobody understands, I really have no idea how much more I can take 😒😒😒
#bpd #bpdproblems #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #eupd #emotionalunstablepersonalitydisorder #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang😎 #bpdsucks #bpdrecovery #bpdiswinning #iwanttofeelhappiness #bpdhurts #bpdissues #ihatefeelinglikethis #alone #mentalhealth

Having a hard time with my mental health at the moment, I feel so alone, I feel like nobody understands, I really have no idea how much more I can take 😒😒😒 #bpd #bpdproblems #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #eupd #emotionalunstablepersonalitydisorder #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang 😎 #bpdsucks #bpdrecovery #bpdiswinning #iwanttofeelhappiness #bpdhurts #bpdissues #ihatefeelinglikethis #alone #mentalhealth - 2 years ago

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#bpd #eupd #bpdproblems #bpdissues #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang😎 #bpdwontbetheboss #bpdsucks #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #iwanttofeelhappiness #bpdrecovery #bpdhurts #onedayatatime #bpdstruggles

#bpd #eupd #bpdproblems #bpdissues #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang 😎 #bpdwontbetheboss #bpdsucks #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #iwanttofeelhappiness #bpdrecovery #bpdhurts #onedayatatime #bpdstruggles - 2 years ago

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Sounds about right πŸ•³πŸ˜’πŸ˜”
#bpd #bpdisorder  #eupd #bpdwontbetheboss #bpdstruggles #bpdproblems #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang #bpdstress #bpdrecovery #bpdlife #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #lifestruggles #bpdwontwin #bpdhurts #bpdisscary

Sounds about right πŸ•³πŸ˜’πŸ˜” #bpd #bpdisorder #eupd #bpdwontbetheboss #bpdstruggles #bpdproblems #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang #bpdstress #bpdrecovery #bpdlife #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #lifestruggles #bpdwontwin #bpdhurts #bpdisscary - 2 years ago

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This could not be more fitting. I used to be a crier. I cried all the time, over big things and little things.. now, now I just don't cry. I feel blank. It's like I feel emotions constantly changing but I lay in bed whenever I'm not working without acknowledging my feelings. I feel. But I'm emotionless. 
#depressionhurts#bpdhurts#anxietyhurts#depression#bpd#bipolar#anxiety#depressionquotes#bpdquotes#anxietyquotes#emotions#emotionless#crying#crier#pasttense#bed#life#hurt#pain#struggle#quotes#lifequote

This could not be more fitting. I used to be a crier. I cried all the time, over big things and little things.. now, now I just don't cry. I feel blank. It's like I feel emotions constantly changing but I lay in bed whenever I'm not working without acknowledging my feelings. I feel. But I'm emotionless. #depressionhurts #bpdhurts #anxietyhurts #depression #bpd #bipolar #anxiety #depressionquotes #bpdquotes #anxietyquotes #emotions #emotionless #crying #crier #pasttense #bed #life #hurt #pain #struggle #quotes #lifequote - 3 years ago

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It's all a highlight reel. People only post the happy things not the struggles, for they worry they are going to be judged. 
I however openly share my struggles on social media, because only then will the stigma of mental health be broken 
#borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdhurts #ontheborderline #bpdfeels #breakthestigma #bpdstigma

It's all a highlight reel. People only post the happy things not the struggles, for they worry they are going to be judged. I however openly share my struggles on social media, because only then will the stigma of mental health be broken #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdhurts #ontheborderline #bpdfeels #breakthestigma #bpdstigma - 4 years ago

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Soon my adventure to Newcastle will start and I will begin DBT πŸ’— Also some really hard things to leave behind

#BPD #bpdhurts  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #borderline #bpdrecovery

Soon my adventure to Newcastle will start and I will begin DBT πŸ’— Also some really hard things to leave behind #BPD #bpdhurts #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #borderline #bpdrecovery - 4 years ago

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#bpd #bpdhurts #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #ontheborderline #borderline

#bpd #bpdhurts #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #ontheborderline #borderline - 4 years ago

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❀️ #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdhurts #tooemotional #toomanyfeelings

❀️ #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdhurts #tooemotional #toomanyfeelings - 4 years ago

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