So I am definitely more anxious and harder on myself with the negative self talk and judgement during pottery class on Tuesdays vs drop in on Sunday.
It is frustrating and exhausting. Things never seem good enough on Tuesdays.
Come on brain what is going on? While I think only part of it is weekday after work vs weekend.
Felt like I did pretty good at a few things on Sunday and today centering was extra challenging and I threw my pots way off centre when opening.
I am not in a competition. I try really hard not to attach my sense to my creative endeavours.
From a life/self care perspective, I had a reallt good weekend. Maybe the anxious brain was panicing a bit. Need something to go over the top with.
I did try to through a specific shape today. First attempt was not successful (but I do really love its asymetricness). The second attempt was closer! And worked extra hard on my bringing clay up from the bottom.
Even reflecting on the progress part, a big part of me is pushing back, resisting.
Blargh. - 7 days ago