Something strange happened to me; It’s been a week since my last post on here.
I couldn’t find a photo that felt right to share.
Nothing felt right. Nothing seemed to match with with rest of my feed.
To be completely honest, I’m tired and bored with most my work.
It’s like, none of it feels relevant to who and where I am right now.
The frustrating thing is that I have SO MUCH work I haven’t shared on here and SO MUCH unpublished work I didn’t even begin to process …but like I said, most of it feels like it belongs to someone else …and some days I feel like I couldn't care less about it all.
Recently I’ve been thinking more about the act of photographing vs. the act of photo editing.
To me, they’re inseparable but I HATE the editing part.
I used to really worry about sharing everything I photograph, I felt bad if something stayed in the archives; “Everything I photograph, I photograph with the intention of having it published” …but I’ve been realising I don’t care about it now. Yeah, it’ll be nice to share it all, but sometimes the act of photographing, that magical energy exchanging moment I have with the subject - that alone is enough. That alone is fulfilling.
Being a photographer isn’t easy. This is the tip of the iceberg of how difficult it can be if you try to take it seriously. Being an artist is even more mind-boggling.
After all, the only thing left for us is to choose between two options:
Not act, or act. Stay in place, or keep going.
There’s a grace in being quiet present stillness nothingness. Be soft yet powerful, like water. The ocean patiently allows all things to flow into it. It is always flexible. It's not grasping it's allowing.
Some other times, you must initiate, and keep going.
Today despite my hesitance and uncertainty, I choose to keep going.
Photo: Luca for 'Naked with Masks'. Wapping, London, UK (July 2014).
The original photograph can be found on my website.
PS the mask is an actual triangle paper mask made out of a pizza carton, it is not graphics edited digitally onto the photo, despite looking this way. However, the penis censor is. - 22 hours ago