hi. i’ve tried to write this four or five times today and for the first time in my life, i’m kind of at a loss for words. i’m not good at being open with most people, but all i have realized from this platform is that if you can use your voice to help one person, it is worth being honest. here’s a start, i think.
this week has not been so hot. it started with a surgery for what i was originally told was endometriosis, but i was later diagnosed with interstitial cystitis, or ic, an inflammatory disease linked with many autoimmune disorders. when i was told, i didn’t know how to pronounce it, let alone what it even was. after my surgery, i was hospitalized because i lost the ability to use my right leg and couldn’t walk because of the strained nerves. i’m still trying to sort my way through all this new information, and working towards getting all my mobility back. i’m thankful that slowly, the feeling came back in my leg, but i currently can barely move much on my own, and if you know me, you know how frustrating that is for someone that usually moves probably too fast for her own good.
i want to take a second to say thank you to everyone who has extended a compassionate word or hand to me over the last few days. i also want to remind you to be aware of your body and what it is telling you. i have had to start teaching myself that rest is not equivalent to laziness. you are only given one chance to be an advocate for your health. your best tool is a positive outlook and your voice. i’m thankful for answers i hadn’t previously gotten and having a plan to move forward. i’m thankful to my doctor for making internal adjustments to help reduce the pain i’ve had for the last two years. i’m thankful for the start of a new chapter. thank you for not being too hard on me in my absence. i promise i’ll be back fully soon. - 9 minutes ago