Such an awkward picture lmao but progress pictures are important!
For 5 months I’ve been in a bulking phase. I always felt like I had to roll my eyes or make it a joke when I told people because the term has such a “gym bro” connotation. I felt judged. But I don’t care. These past five months and the bulking mindset has COMPLETELY changed my life. I didn’t do great with this bulk, only put on about 5 pounds. I am not looking for this to be a big cut. But even still I learned so so much. So instead of just posting a progress picture of where I’m sitting before I cut, there’s a lot of internal progress that came with it too.
I’ve shared before that I’ve had a somewhat negative relationship with food in the past. Never an eating disorder, but definitely disordered eating. Stressing about calorie content of everything I ate, feeling guilty after eating. Worrying about literally seasoning having calories. ARE YOU KIDDING. .
Then I decided I wanted to put on muscle. Scientifically, you have to be in a caloric surplus to put on muscle (weight). It took me about 2 months before I mentally accepted the amount of calories I needed to be at. But when I did, holy shit, my life changed. There was no more stressing, no more not even enjoying “treat” foods because I was too worried about calorie content. I ate whatever I wanted! Ate more than I wanted. Enjoyed going out with friends. Going out to eat. The mental freedom was insane. I was no longer a prisoner for the disordered eating mindset. I FUELED my body, because that’s what food does, and kicked my ass in the gym. Now I’m ready to cut down a little bit and see my hard work. I’m excited for this phase too (hopefully will save some damn money on food lol) and am happy I have a healthy mindset to do it. And since I’ve learned to properly fuel my body, I’m going to be cutting at still pretty high calories. It’s LIT. I’m so grateful for this sport and even though I only do it for myself, no competing or anything, it’s completely changed my life and I’ve become so passionate about showing anyone whose struggled with that mindset to see how it can changes yours too. NOW LETS GET SHREDDY. - 1 hour ago