How I'm dealing with the mom guilt.
People have asked me how homeschooling has been going, and I always have a little twang of mom guilt when I answer, because I honestly haven't done any schooling with S.
For the past 11 weeks S has been self studying. Each week I go through his online learning portal and create a list of things he needs to do that week. Each day he picks 4-5 things from his list and needs to finish those plus his chores before watching YouTube or play video games with his friends.
Our days consist of check ins, because you see, these past 11 weeks I've been attempting to grow my business. I didn't lose my job, I got busier (which is something I am incredibly grateful for), and it's been a whirlwind. I also have never spent this much time at home with my son (save for my year of maternity leave). I'm seriously grateful for this time, but it's been challenging.
I've been a working mom since he was about 4 months old. He's been in daycare since he was a year old. I'm not used to this!
Managing my time between taking care of myself, showing up as a mom, a wife, a daughter-in law, managing the house, taking care of animals, growing my business, showing up for my clients, on top of processing a lot of tough emotions- has been fucking hard. I cry a lot. I also do my best to laugh a lot.
So, while I haven't taught my son anything school related, I have taught him how to manage his time. Could he be doing better on his actual work? Probably, but I don't have the bandwidth to do it with him. Has he been spending more time on the TV? Yes, but whatever. I've accepted it, it's okay.
I'm doing the best that I can with what I've got, and that's all that matters. I am by no means perfect, but we've figured out something that works for everyone, and that's amazing.
So, if you've been feeling guilty- I feel you. You're doing the best you can and that's all that matters <3 - 30 minutes ago