Children are taught this traditional mantra:
'Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But words can never hurt me'
However, words do hurt us, and they can most certainly be used as weapons
For as long as I can remember I have been teased for my maiden name Amanda Hunt by adults and children alike. After stating my surname the obvious next word association and rhyme would be the word ‘cun✢’ (Instagram blocks posts using this and the following censored words, words which I wouldn’t ordinarily censor)
Stating my name lead to the inevitable sick feeling. Awaiting them to curse me in a way that was suppose to invoke humour. I’d hold my breath hoping they were a polite enough person not to state the slant aloud. Needing to state my full name at any time for decades lead to discomfort and fear
The word's etymology is highly contentious but we know it predates the word vag!ina and pen!s. It is perhaps the most offensive word in the English language (aside from the N word used to dehumanise African Americans)
I was excited when I married because I took the name Dutson therefore ending the inevitable scathing rhyme. The insecurity led me to seek out a guru who blessed me with my spiritual name: Amrit which means God’s Nectar
Of course I felt this summarised me quite succinctly. It also means; immortality, the death of ideas, promised by God and ‘Everything is Everything’. Amrita also means the liquid produced from female ejaculation. Delicious
But I was still only running from my origins. After my divorce became ‘official’ earlier this year I was very adamant I would keep the surname Dutson. But I soon realised it was being used as a way to hide from my original birth name; Hunt. And the inevitable barb that would be inflicted by the associated word ‘Cun✢’ Why was I so ashamed and wounded by this mysterious word?
I realised the word is symptomatic of the way society hides, shames and appropriates the female anatomy. The word ‘Cun✢’, just like the sacred organ to which it refers, has come to signify disgust and distaste. It has morphed into a way to describe an unpleasant or stupid person, something disparaging and obscene. It is symptomatic.... CUNT’D below 👇🏼😉 - 1 hour ago