Another selfie and I'm feeling cute! But I want to talk about how I'm feeling inside not about how I look or what I'm wearing.
I am bipolar and I had a pretty wild manic episode around Christmas. And when I settled down a bit I settled into a not quite manic emotional and joyful state of being, instead of my "normal" depressive and apathetic state. I'm feeling a range emotions I haven't felt in a long time. I'm still learning how to deal with being in such a up mood. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop and I'll spiral back down into a depressive episode again.
That fear has made my anxiety go through the roof. I've been having wild, disturbing dreams that I can't quite remember when I wake myself. My heart has been randomly racing, I have to focus and do some slow breathing to help it calm.
The anxiety has given a new spin on my OCD. Which is rampant and boggling in the new ways and things it's made my brain itch over.
Knowing I'm not in true control of how my brain chemistry works I'm just trying to enjoy the ups while I can.
And that is my bit of word vomit. Thanks for reading if you made it this far.
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