There were times when I wrote, when I felt stuck in an infinite loop, I am stubborn in my ways and I have this habit of getting myself out of these fixes/setbacks/breakdown. Initially, I had no choice, when I did I reached out but it felt temporary and I realised the make-shift nature of this help was when the people weren't permanent.
As I poured onto those blank papers, I distanced myself from those words and while writing itself I found the spark to get the back up!
The times when I felt distant with my words, couldn't express much to anyone and just felt trapped when I anywhere anyone asked me how I was.
Really, are they interested? Would it help them if they knew or would it help me at all? How will I face them next time if I tell them how I have been?
I would definitely let out a sad vibe and nobody would want to be around me. Even if they didn't matter, it mattered to me as I put on this brave smile and walk pass them, will I still be able to do that?
The series of thoughts never really stops, creating branches and I don't need all of that. So, I went back to my desk and wrote.
It reminds me I'm not just a sad phase, I'm not one bad day as and I'm definitely not what others see me as. .
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