rant; feel free to scroll past.
to be honest i don't even know why i'm here anymore. i'm not trying to complain or sound whiny or whatever, but honestly this is the first fandom i've been in that i genuinely feel unwelcome. nobody dms me, or writes with me. i don't get added into chats when i request, nobody's requests to be in my chats when i make the posts. i even tried to make au's but what's the point when only one person asks for one? i put so much effort into my editing, and i try so goddamn hard with my writing and keeping my portrayal as close to both novel and film richie as i can, and nobody cares. i've made a total of one sort of friend since i've been here but even then i barely know them. i can't even find mains for christs sake, no matter how hard i try. i just feel super fucking insignificant here, and it hurts. i'm so close to just leaving and getting back into a super toxic fandom/community like supernatural or stranger things because at least there people spoke to me and gave a damn about my character, even if it was just to try to start and spread drama 24/7 or try to convince me that underage and incestuous smut was fine. (common problem in both of those communities) idk man it just. yeah. anyways imma dip for the night cause this has me depressed as fuck. - 1 minute ago