You know ive been told all my life that I'm "not good enough" and most of all, that I'm not "pretty enough" Hmmm wonder why that is? 🤔 And I struggled all my life wondering what it was about me that was so "wrong". Being told that my curves were "disgusting" and "obese" and I "looked better" as a blonde, and that I would be "gorgeous" if only I shaved off the bump on my nose. And now at 31 years old I know better. I know that even though Im as white as a fucking snowflake, I'm still not white enough for some! Not for certain folks, and that's just sad. I spent years and countless efforts trying to be what I thought was expected of me. And I got nowhere and nothing in return.
And I see these pictures of my Cherokee great-great grandmother, who survived the Trail of Tears ; and my Sicilian Papa (great grandfather) and I think of their struggle and their survival, and I see their "ethnic" features and in them, I see myself. And I see the beauty that was strong enough to inherit. And my “ugliness “, my dark, over-arched brow, and oily skin, and bumpy nose are not features to be shamed and dismissed. They're markers of my past and future; they're a testament of my ancestors and their will to survive. So no, I will not apologize for them or myself; I'm proud of them and what they represent. And I'm sorry if you think I'm "fat" or "unfuckable" or my looks are somehow "unworthy" of your precious time. But that's on you, regardless imma still be here doing me. Doing the best I can. All you can do is be your best self and stop worrying about the state of others #realtalk #selfcare #selfacceptance #selfesteem #self #history #selflove #beauty #ancestors #ancestry - 6 minutes ago