Relationships are messy. But the ones who are able to build lifelong ones are those who are able to sit in the mess with someone and work it out together.
Today was a difficult day. It started with hope, then a broken heart, leading to doubts and anger, and finally getting to honesty and acceptance. Even if wasn’t perfect. Even if it was messy. Even if it took everything in me to just let go and speak about what’s truly hurting in my heart, I went and did it. Even if I didn’t feel safe, I leapt and blurted it out. Because I wanted to fix whatever was broken, and to fix it it meant I had to give up the belief that I alone can fix it and give the other person a chance to fix it. Because the relationship was more important than myself, I had to do self-love and admit, “hey man, you hurt me.” And have faith that the other person will hear me out. I have always thought that loving others also meant loving myself. But boy did I hit my head so hard today just to be reminded of that. - 2 hours ago