Full disclosure: it has taken me a long time to get here, and I still have slips. As a woman, it’s pretty difficult to avoid internalizing the message that other woman are your competition. We are taught to compete for just about everything. Taught the idea that somehow another woman’s beauty takes away from our own. That their intelligence threatens ours. Their success lessens what we’ve accomplished.
On Friday night, I showed up at my babes’ @insta_schrammy house. I have been doing some deep healing over the last few months. Deep healing can and will kick up old traumas. Trauma clouds our ability to see ourselves clearly. AKA I was in my head and not feeling so great about myself.
Amanda is friends with what I can only describe as a group of goddesses (as all women are). Loving, kind, smart, open, beautiful, graceful. And I found myself IMMEDIATELY comparing myself to all of them. Making myself feel less than.
My point in sharing this, is that what was going on in my head had nothing to do with any of them. I was making up stories. Stories of not belonging, of not fitting, of not being good enough. Stories like this are what block our ability to connect. To see and be seen.
These stories build walls, we think we are protecting ourselves, but really the walls just block joy. If you swipe on this post you will see what happened when I released these stories, dropped my walls, and let myself love and be loved. FREEDOM. We are all deserving of love every single second of our lives, not just when we are feeling “perfect” or healed.”
To the ladies that were my mirrors that night: I love you sisters! Thank you for being true to yourselves and for reminding me of who I am when I forget. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH.
And if you’re still feeling like other women are your competition, take a look inside of your mind at the stories you’ve created about yourself. You are beautiful and magical. I love you.
I promise you, we are not here to compete, and we will always always go further together. Tag your sisters below! I rise, you rise, we rise ✨
In love and self-awareness,
Amalia - 2 hours ago