A plant based pescatarian diet is my safe place. I in no way believe myself to be better than anyone. Though my behavior revolving food and nutritional intake is more than likely superior. When I say “I’m not as good with food as you” or “me and sugar are not friends...” what I describe next is the reason. ...
I need you to understand.. Things got very bad very quickly. Understand I stole nothing, there just came a lack of necessity to purchase the items individually relevant to the rate of consumption. Understand from 2am-5am on the 18th of February I got high off food. Things got very bad very quickly. The day continued..
There’s only awe.. no regret.
Not confusion, simply a realization of the underestimation of an anticipation.
The increase in heart rate and blood pressure become visible causing a disruption in HRV.
@whoop is unable to process sleep.
This behavior continues in combination with my normal diet the next 43hrs. At first I was happy. Now I’m worried... “will I stop?” “am I a fake?” “whatever you do don’t eat meat.” ; My adherence to a pescatarian diet is my only glimpse of hope.
“At this point, a little magnesium citrate is almost a necessity.”
It’s 6pm. 16 hours have passed this day without a meal. Not a big deal. I convince myself it’s fine to eat. I pick up some “zone perfect” protein bars and dread the macro’s.. as I’m about to eat them, I look at the sugar content and become afraid...
Song of the Day: Cut Off by Escuro
Macro’s for this glorious meal:
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