Card # 2
Queen of Blades
You won’t get too far in life with all of that resentment stored within your heart. You will thwart meaningful experiences and also inhibit your emotional growth. You have to release what weighs on you so heavily. All of that disappointment and heartache from the past was there to teach you, and those defense mechanisms you took on since then are now serving as major blockages. Sure, you needed to shield your heart from future pain, but, you cannot love deeply if you are so heavily guarded. Your true strength is not the armor you use to hide yourself away behind, but it is through your vulnerability.
Forgiving the past does not mean that you are saying what happened is okay, it just means that you are not allowing it to control your life anymore and you release the experiences, you transform the pain into gold and you learn so you can grow.
You may also be a bit resentful because you aren’t receiving the help from others that you need. They show up when it is beneficial for them and never go out of their way for you, as you have for them. You are perfectly capable of handling whatever is on your plate on your own, but just keep it as a reminder that you can’t always expect others to have your best interests at heart. This doesn’t mean you have to change your face and harden your heart, but rather that some healthy boundaries set into play would help in the long run in allowing others to treat you with more respect. - 6 minutes ago