Growing up I really struggled with low self esteem. Why do you think I teach about accepting and embracing yourself so much?
I starved myself though high school so I could stay in my cheerleading uniform.
Every single event in my life, I could tell you the number I was on the scale.
Man, even writing this…I’m like…woah…things just got real.
I consider myself an open book. Very much an extrovert who loves to converse with people.
I openly tell a lot of my story as well.
But this…this button…this is a level of vulnerability that leaves my stomach feeling a little queasy. That’s how my body tells me I’m moving towards something scary and uncomfortable.
I took this picture in the bathroom of @marieforleo studio.
I was determined to take in every. single. juicy . moment of this experience.
I mean, who gets to go hang out on the set of Marie TV to share their story?
Not this lady. Cuz I’m not ready.
I am not at the weight I would want to be to go LIVE in front of millions of viewers around the globe.
Just let that sit for a minute.
It could make me cry.
I didn’t know I was gonna feel this way when I decided to post this picture.
Sometimes, we just bury things.
I was determined to not allow what I look like to overshadow any second of my time being in that studio.
It’s been years of hard work.
And I am a million times better than I was as the 10 year old who wouldn’t go to the end of the year swim party because then I’d have to be seen in a bathing suit.
I still feel all the things. My head still battles the thoughts of discouragement and fear.
The difference is…I feel the fear and DO IT ANYWAY.
They were calling us the “lucky 7” last year and tomorrow, the next 7 will be sharing their #bschool success stories.
It will be live and you don’t want to miss it.
I’ll post the link in my bio.
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